From what i see~ *_*

I tend to think alot these dayz~ i've done so many mistakes - those mistakes i myself didn't even realise at first. I've got lotz to learn~....

Im turning 21 soon~ sigh, y so fast? Guess im not ready to be there yet. I wonder~.. have i really grown up? ahaha~ dari segi pikiran la. Hmmm~ i see things differently. People say im clueless~ hahaha, banar plg, well, im not really that clueless!! :P i just look bangang all the time thatz all haha.

Anyway~.. i find it sad~.. knowing the fact that not everyone can live their life the way they wanted. Yah~ so unpredictable~.. we just have to be strong and try to move forward.

About me, i wanna learn more about myself. Itz scary there's still some part of me i dont understand. I can get over the limit sometimes, itz so annoying, especially when i get too overexcited. I cant help myself, altho, i still have to try.

But then again, im glad i have been the way i am. I dont regret for all things i have done. Cause for who i am now is from who i was by then. Still~.. the future scares me...

Letterz from the past~ *_*

*Due to my slow internet connection, i had a hard time trying to upload picz~ :P i apologize lama nda update*

Last 2 weeks - spent d whole day rah Zai's with illa since she was going back to NZ~ i posted this msareto udah, now itz pictures time. Sekali rajin, rajin~ sekali malas, malas. Sayang bah i edited d picz last time, itz never to late.

I wonder bah~ y do i have to post pictures kan? Why do other ppl to do so? To show and let everyone know what r d thingz u have done? But~ mo orang kan tau kan? I mean me bah, why did i blog at the beginning? Hmmmmmmm~.... okeh okeh~ leave it, lain pulang aku ah aiyaya. Back to where i supposed to talk about~

Letterz from the past.

Finally the day have come. Itz all started in 2002, abez pmb, ikut-ikutan dari comic 'Chibimaruko', me and Zai made letterz for each other and ourselves to be read in the future. And when we said future, we meant around our 20's~ who knew that we would seperate countries apart?

Now, 2008 is here, Im so happy Zai managed to go home! D letterz were made every year since 2002, so there's lotz to read! From me myself, from Zai, Illa, Hayat and Mahirah! - Forgot 2 tell the other girls had joined in some of the yearz back then. Ytah we were hoping to opened the letterz with everyone but hayat n mahirah nda dapat. But since diz may be d only time Zai ada, terpaksala...

Nyway~Let the letters opening ceremony beginz!

~Starting from the oldest one 2002, in a soda bottle ehe (we planned to buried it in smb msareto :P nasib baik nda jadi) Berdegup jantung ani wa~ *_*

Reading the letters out loud, cali la~ our 1st letters were quite short and colourful~ we were in form3, still boycrazy talking about each and every guy we admire, oh man~ this is what we get from the past??? Im not going to read mine :P sabut sabut pun bangang saja orang aha. Nyway, this is from Zai 2002 to Pu3 2008~

"Pu3~ i love u! Apa khabar mu? Rinduku eh~ kau ani bestfrenku dari form1. Jangan lupakan aku. Cubako~ ku tumbuk ko! Ku gigit ko! Apa kau buat masa ani? Sapa boymu? (1) Zuhri? (Iya...bisai...-_-') (2) Zell? (Padan padan :D smoga bahagia) (3) Jack? (Oh my god...@_@) (4) Petrick? (I'll kill you *_* i'll die)

Thanx 4 being my bestfren!"

Oh wow~ dat was surprisingly funny~ Ramai jua calon boyfren ku =_=' yah, listed were all my admires back then. Semua lagi kana bari nickname tu, rinduku eh =o= I've been without a single special boyfren for 19 years but i have damn a hell lots of guys i got crush on over d yearz whahahaha~ wait, is that something ntuk dimalukan kah or something to be proud of? :P:P:P - aku bangga ehhhh donno y.

Uh oh~ and - Zai sounded so ganassssss~!!

Then~ we opened all the other letters one by one~ baca sama2~ ketawa sama2~ malu sama2~ banyak question yang buat lain rasa ati... like.. "Ndakan nda berbf masa ani kan?!' or~.. "Kawin tah sudah??" from Illa ehehehe~..

Back then~... we didnt know what we will be at the age of 20~.. i didnt think of getting into University that time, I didnt think that the way i would be will still gonna be d same.

After reading all the letters, sunyi rasanya~

Ceremony ended~

After we went to pasar malam for midnight snack~ we went straight to bed. Illa's 1st sleepover ehe~ XD

Next morning was refreshing~ since itz d last day with Zai, we took so many picz with Zai's camera. Ya la~ bukannya selalu kan?Sampat ke CA Muhammad for breakfast~..

Oh and dat petang~ sampat Hadee datang jua! And he just came back from Aussie a day before.

Uh, not much to say~ just showing off some of the pics ;) lawa ba d quality and colours. and itz Zai's camera anyway. oh oh, and so many pictures of me mE ME! Aha, im not that vain actually, klu mua lawa buleh la :P ...like musim nda berjerawat ka XD den barutah berabez...wait, nda jua la...

Me~... being with my closest friends~ im so glad that we didnt change much eventhough we're oceanz apart. i hope this friendship remains forever~..

Altho we'll never know what'll happen next~...

Frenz who were there for each other~ *_*

Bought new specz yesterday in Miri~ itz my 1st time with thick frames. L3.5, R2.5. I actually kinda like it :)

Hahaha~ over all these yearz, ani barutah berani post myself with glasses. I started wearing one since primary 6 actually. Then contact lenses since form2. Not many ppl know i wear glasses, bida bahhhh, macam orang tua~.. seriously T_T

Nyway, just had a date with Longlong (still consider a date kah? Aha ;D) this morning wit specz (1st time ever!) - just for a change. See, i look different kan? Longlong likes it somehow hurh, a new me? Oh come'n~

Both of us havent got our good appetite eversince we came back home~.. well, i hope u ppl understand~.. Got skinnier than before~..So i thought abt having lunch together, and have a nice chat.
But then~.. the food didnt look appetizing at all~.. ->

We talked about the things we've been thro~ to think it over, it was beautiful somehow. We are glad we met each other, learned, taught one another and going through so many things together. But the time have come to realise that we have to move on. No regrets.

Coz we are still the same :)

A quick snap~ Longlong's genuine smile haha :PLonglong never like to be in pictures haha, you could actually see from his fake smiles :P aku yg suka ambil gambar ani, asal keluarkan camera, marung tu muanya aha. If only he gets a li'l vain. Oh well~

We are who we are~..

We are for who we are~ *_*

Who, among all the picshots, look most likely like a hamster? Aha, my cuz tu jahat~

Illa should hv joined the vanity shotz! nah~ nada

Slept over Zai's place for her birthday yesterday with Illa. At d same time it was d last night before she go back to New Zealand. U cant imagine how happy i was knowing she was going home to Brunei even it was only for 2 weeks. I thought we might not see each other for 6 yearz since we dont have the same holidays. Same goes to hadee from Australia!! N guess what, Zai balek, Hadee datang! Nasib baik sampat jumpa.

Waaaa~ musim emotional ani lh palingku need my bestfrenz. They have alwez been my comfort and support for yearz~... *sobsob*~ donno how will i be without you all~.. Thankful berabezku dorang sanggup balek brunei wlupun cuti pendek :')

Illa, Pu3 & Hadee rah bilik Zai~ I love her room full of all sweet stuffz :)

*more about d sleepover next post*

What is love actually? *_*

Who'z init - Hadee, Ipin, Zai, Zoel, Illa & Pu3 (Sori drawingz bikin bida)

Itz been a while since i last draw~ It was supposed to be a drawing of me being alone actually~ but then i thought about all the frenz im in love with~ i couldnt leave them out.. 'I am never alone no matter where i am'. i started to wonder~.. Is there really a difference between a love for a boyfriend and a love for bestfriends?

... is it possible that~

im not there yet?...

Huhu~ anyway~..

'Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours'

Der goes the bluebunny and hummingbird story~.. They should have known that they're 2 different species hahaha~ :P:P:P

It has been great :)

Away sekeluarga~ *_*

Somethingz wrong with my camera~ sigh. So~ curi gambarz from Yaka n babah. We had a family trip to KK :) i find some of gambarz are nice.

Cuz Kaka Tuyah from NZ & li'l bro Yaka

Thingz you cant explain :P

Oppz~

Us with sunglasses we just bought :P

Menenangkan jiwa ahaaha~

Around d hotspring~

Cute li'l Hadee & mami nya~

D biggest flower in the world~ Rafflesia~ Wah really wanna see the real 1 ehh~ *_*

Bali bali~

3 families altogether~

Myself (1996)

Myself

(Diary Introduction 19th July 1996)

Hello my name is dk.Zaya Puteri.
I am nine years old.
I live in taman puri.
My faveorite food is daging and nasi ayam.
I have 5 family.
I in primary 3A class in Sunshine school.
Went 2 years later I in primary 5.
My best cosion is Faridah.
It’s my mother sister of mother Faridah.
I am fell matematiks. I don’t know I fell matematiks.
And I love my family.
Someday I am so boring in agama.
I have a lots of tired.
So I fell a sleep in class agama.
Then my teacher siram me.
So I weak up and my teacher said don’t always sleep.

If u ask me, surprisingly i have started writting a diary since I was in Primary 1~ It has alwayz been my favoarite pastym to reread everything i written years and years~ Yes, im quite proud of myself aha, amazing how different can a person's thoughts changes over the years. Sadly i stopped continuing eversince upper six + attached with Longlong~ too happy to write about it? I donno eh~ Guess i have forgotten for who I really was~ I have dreams~.. finishing my book filled with life~ Now, once again~.. my journey continues~....

Aww Sweet~ *_*

Since i got nuthin' to do, i looked thro the latest family album~ Raya 2007, a celebration without me and my big bro. Found cute pics aha, my mum should have sent me these picz while i was in Aberdeen hurh.

Babah and mami~
My li'l sibblings~ Yana, Yaka and Malina

Sweet kan familyku ani? Awu ja awu ja. ahaha~ ^_^ Love dem so much! *Termasuk abgku yang paling annoying aha~*

Kiss Me Goodbye~ *_*

The song that Longlong introduced to me, the song that brought us together 2 years ago. How ironic, the lyrics turned out to be d one that could tell the story about our relationship. U did put a dream in my reality~ thank you so much for that... Im glad my 1st boyfren is you (n itz a pleasure to b ur 1st as well)~ itz really sad that it didnt work out, but we know itz better to let each other go.


You say my love is all you need to see you through
But I know these words are not quite true
Here is the path you're looking for; an open door
Leading you to worlds you long to explore
Go if you must move on along
I'm gonna make it on my own

Kiss me goodbye, love's memory
Follow your heart and find your destiny
Don't shed a tear for love's mortality
For you put the dream in my reality

As time goes by I know you'll see; this is me here
I loved you enough to let you go free
Go I will give you wings to fly
Cast all your fears into the sky

Kiss me goodbye love's mystery
All of my life I'll hold you close to me
Don't shed a tear for love's mortality
For you put the dream in my reality
Kiss me goodbye love's memory
You put the dream in my reality

With or without~ *_*

Im going thro such a hard time here~ Why does it have to b that HARD?? I myself agree that itz d best for the both of us... but what is this great pain inside? I thank all my frenz for d great support these 3 dayz~.. i rather not talk about it thank u~ but can i talk about some1 else instead? 1 of the people who is very dear to me~ some1 who was alwez there and never failed to make me happy~ and that person is my fren, Ripin~..

Gmbar masa orientation dulu hehe~
Hehe~ itz funny~ but i owe him BIG!! We just met in Pteb 3 yearz ago~ hahaha, masih sekolah. He was sweet and funny~ well still is, but the more i noe him, the more i love em so. Aha, this post is gonna be all about em, i feel like talking bout em baa. He touches my heart so many times that i couldnt keep this myself anymore, how wonderful a person can be, as crazy as he looks.
Umm~where to start~.. let me tell u about today den, we went out nearly the whole day~ he rushed the moment i told em the news. I knew he's having examz at the moment, but he didnt mind to meet me. I miss him so much~! and this time, he drives. I didnt eat for 2 days eversince the breakup, i have no appetide at all, but ipin pajal aku haha, went to vintage rose, i managed to finish my beef stick! Den he took me bowling wlupun ia tau aku teruk nda pandai main (jahat!), den have some dougnuts around Kampong Ayer~ after Karaoke we finally went home. Ripin tah banar eh, nda dapat kan stay in 1 place in 1 day, i feel bad for taking his time... but i was really happy... so happy, rasakan menangis haha.

To him, im just one of his frens, but to me, he's a special fren. Looking back~ there were so many wonderful things he did for me. Japanese speech competition 2006, i dont think i would get 2nd place without em, i practiced my speech a lot infron of ipin in pteb. Then on d day of the contest, i was dead nervous, i couldnt do my speech well, until i saw ipin arrived. I imagined the room was just the 2 of us like i used to practice, all the sudden, a burst of confidence, i smiled, i managed to get thro. I was glad to noe he came. Thatz just one~ otherz from that, were the sweet memories we made. He love to tease and annoy ppl a lot, but somehow it never pissed me off, instead i would alwez laughed my head off forgetting the world we living in.


I love to talk about my problems and life with ipin. He alwez say all the positive things about everything, buat aku sentiasa bersemangat and never give up. Guess there's no secret that he doesnt noe about me haha, ia atu pemajal baaaa!! But banartah eh, the more the person knows about u, the more closer u feel to that person. But ipin nda mo share some of his baa, oh well, i cant force em, im just a fren (mnyamal hehehe). I don mind la, i still love him for who he is. Respect his personal life (but msih ku try to korek mengurek aha)

What else can i say? Ipinnnn~ thank you so much for all the talk and support ah :') Lap u awang lantut!!

All about ipin, macam lain tah jua usulnya ahh~ aha, oh well.